mrs space's Blog

My Child,
You may read or discuss scripture
As much as you like.

But until you forget everything,
You will never live in your heart.


-Ashtavakra Gita 16:1

From "The Heart of Awareness: A Translation of the Ashtavakra Gita," by Thomas Byrom, 1990. Reprinted by arrangement with Shambhala Publications, Inc., Boston. www.shambhala.com.

Ahhhh, to have time for a cup of tea.

Life seems to be moving at the speed of light, not that I understand what that means exactly. But I know that the changes that are occuring in my life on a daily basis are awe-inspiring.

I pray I will continue to have the strenght to have "no fear" and the wisdom to not sweat the small stuff. For in time, I will understand that is truly is all small stuff.

I pray for the grace to put others at ease and for the words to come to be that they hope to hear. I feel that we can all change for the better, and that there is nothing to fear.

Life will continue to teach each of us it's lessons.

I want encourage, support, and help in any way I can to make sure that others have a wonderul road. My friends helped be to become the person I am today, my wish is to repay, or pay-it-forward in anyway I can.

Now, on to the tea!

I actually started writing on this topic for this page two months ago.... It was mid-March and Rob said, "Hey Honey, it's time for a new page" Number one, I hadn't realized this was to be a semi-monthly thing. So I gave it some thought and was feeling all warm and fuzzy and pretty good about my family.... Well, enough said right? Does everyone here understand that if ever and when ever your feeling GOOD about your family... the bottom fall's out??? Now, I LOVE my family, every single part of it! I love the family that Rob and I have formed together. The family that I have, the family he has and the blended family we have. I love that through this ministry that God has given to us, we have been accepted as family to those families. I am a part of a group of wonderful, women that I only know from here on the internet, but each and every one of them is a sister to me, and we have formed a family among each of us. So, when I say family, it usually brings an instant smile to my face, and if I'm truthful, the first face I see is that of my son's. I have only one child. Lord knows, that is Rob and me had gotten together sooner, we would have had a houseful full of children, but the good Lord knew better and had other plans for us. But I was blessed to have one child. Now, as any mother, I could go on and on about how wonderful, special and unique my son is, but why state the obvious?! (I'm giggling here!) From there I think of Mom, my sis and her family, Rob's Ma, his bro and wife... the other brothers and sisters.... you get the idea. So, family, is it the one word that can cause YOU to smile? or cry, or laugh or decide to go on vacation if you hear they're coming to your town? BUT... don't you let NO one say nothing bad about your family, right? We'd all be the first to stand up for them! That's right! SO what if they never pick up their shoes it's my wife and she can do whatever she wants, right?? It is a twisted complex relationship that I have learned DOES get better with age. When we all start to overlook the little irritations. When a child isn't embarrassed to give a parent a hug. When a grandmother realizes that cooking an entire Thanksgiving Dinner IS to much for her. When a son lets his dad when a video game. When a teenager helps a toddler not to be afraid to get up on Santa's lap. A son brings home the most beautiful golden flowers picked from a field his mom saw and mentioned it to him... These are all the parts that make family so special to me. The hurts, sure they come, but why dwell on them. Last month my world was rocked with a call I received. It was a complete egotistical call from someone who was hurting very badly from things that were wrong in their life. They chose to call me and blame me for the pain that was going on in their life. They also tried to hurt someone very close to me. You know that theory about looking out for the Mama Bear? Well let me tell you.... nobody hurts my family. They can try, and they create havoc for a time, but once the TRUTH comes out, the healing begins. I'm glad I got that call. I was horrified at first, hurt, scared, fearful..... but time, honestly, faith, hope and love have made a difference. I have this theory that I will share with you. In this world, where I need a list for the market, when I have trouble knowing if it is Tuesday or Wednesday, why do I want to dwell or keep score on how many times my feelings have been hurt? I mean, is it going to change anything? If someone say's they forgot and they're sorry, accept it and go on. Yes, I'm sure, learn that you are vulnerable in that area, be smart and perhaps don't get your hopes up, but let it go.... that is the best thing you can do for yourself and them. Share your love and your smiles with them. Take the pressure off and watch them bloom before your eyes! It is a truly amazing process! Happy Family Days to All of Us!

I first want to write about love, and what I believe it can do. I believe it can change a life. To find a True Love is very hard to do. To be in the right place, at the right moment and be open to such a thing... how in the heck does that happen? When I met mine I was certainly not prepared nor equipped to deal with it at that time. I shook my head and told myself NO! Not now, I don't want to risk love! I felt I had nothing to offer. I had plans for heaven's sake! I was going to move back to Southern California, try to get a job transfer, and live with my mom! Now here came this wonderful, caring, loving man who cared so deeply and needed me. We truly needed each other for this horrible low period of our life that we were going through. We were both in the middle of leaving lives behind that had sucked out every ounce of dignity we had left. Out lives were in shambles. But out of that rose up the love of my life. A lot of you know, I met Rob on the internet. We were each members of a Yahoo Club at that time for people going through divorce or break-up type relationships. It was a way to express ourselves and perhaps take comfort that we were not alone. The club was for people in the state of Washington, but most any one in the club from Washington was in Seattle, Tacoma or Spokane, you never met people from SW Washington, all those folks joined Portland area Clubs! But alas, we had both somehow managed to join this same group. I had left my marriage of fourteen years only the previous month. In that month I had had to move TWICE for security (and stupidity) reasons. I was clearly dealing with more stress than I could handle. I was seeing a therapist once a week and barely keeping it all together to get from one day to the next. My dear sweet boss wasn't sure from one day to the next if he would be allowed in the office, or if he was, if I could make it through a day without becoming a basket case! At that time there were several decisions that I made. Then I found Rob. To this day I swear that it was Devine Intervention that led us to be together. Not only in meeting, but in staying and in moving on together. I want each of the couples that we come in contact with through our wedding ministry and to all of our friends and family who will read this, that there is something so special about finding the one you belong with, that when you find them, you've got to love and trust and care for them as a delicate beautiful butterfly. Treasure your time together and realize that each minute is a gift. Life is to short to not take chances and love as if you've never been hurt. There is nothing that I cannot tell this man. There is no shame or hurt that I have to hide form him, nor is there anything he can't tell me, either. I guess with this week of Valentine's approaching I just want to shout it from the roof top! DON'T BE AFRAID TO LOVE! and DON'T BE AFRAID TO TELL THOSE PEOPLE YOU LOVE THAT YOU LOVE THEM. TELL THEM AND TELL THEM OFTEN